Hello May.

Welcoming May here. Tada! *drum rolls*

Yes, May is here with us meaning I have numerous assignments due within this month. I mainly have a lot of things to accomplish and step by step is the only way to make it right. Thank you April it was a pleasure, not. I have had enough obstacles to be done and I see June is coming very soon so I have got to be good. I can't really see why I have this certain problem to be corrected. You see, I have been wasted here for two years I don't speak in eloquent English like many people do. Every time I get my assignments back, grammar has always been my biggest problem. Thou I tried. Yes I wish I was able to speak in their language fluently, how I wish I were them. Really. It's been a tough months for me, a massive struggle is needed. I repeatedly make mistakes and I see I have to learn from them. Frankly speaking, I don't see people here are friendly. Some of them you lot may see, yes, they are. Bounce your arse to my University, you indeed will see a diversity. However, count how many of them speak English as their first language. I know mine is not that bad but I gaze mine is not even better than them lot. It has been improving, I assume.

So May, just be good.

x

(...still thinking of a good title)

Hello Blogspot, yes I am here again to tell you the 20 things you don't know about me. I'm just being random, really. I've been having a terrible week, blame those shits I can't even sleep really well it disturbs me even every time I close my eyes.

1. Unfortunately, I'm purely Indonesian and why can't I be British? I don't work for Hitler and his ideology of Nazism and Fascism, I don't even have any idea why I (so much) hate Chinese which basically identifies me as a rasict teenage girl. I just hate everything about them.

2. I believe I am both Nadya and Kish. I have this very selfish Nadya and a super friendly Kish. I prefer to be called Kish rather than Nadya, to be honest. I made the name myself like 5 years ago. And I use Vibestation to hide my identity. I put that everywhere I make accounts, even to post mails to my boyfriend. Don't ask me the history of that last name. The most annoying thing is when them need to check on my ID.

3. I'm a Capricorn but I don't act like one. I'm the opposite of the actual facts.

4. I'm an Agnostic. The funny thing is, I never know how to explain to people what Agnostic really is but I have the wikipedia definition and explanation in my brain which makes me one of them.

5. I don't eat meat not because I don't like it, it's because I can't munch over them and I can't swallow them so I can't digest them. (Too many 'them', sorry)

6. I don't know much about sex. That doesn't mean I don't like it when people talk about that, but basically I 'euw' them cos I have a very high imagination system inside me.

7. So yarr, I imagine every single thing.

8. I fuckin like bears. I fuckin like sharks more. I deserve to have a castle in the ocean.

9. I go gay sometimes if I needed to.

10. I can't live without my iPod, albeit I don't really need it when I'm with my mates. I just need sumat in my bag.

11. Deo means everything to me, and none of you can actually find the definition on Google. I made it myself and I hide it somewhere on Google, iGoogle, myGoogle.

12. The more you hate me, the more I like you.

13. I'm pretty much a sarcastic person but I'm not good at being sarcastic to sarcastic people.

14. I talk about people a lot, even about my mates. That doesn't mean I hate you, I talk about you lot means I care about you. And also means I note every single thing about you lot. Yes, that's true. Take the advantage.

15. I google my assignments.

16. I fuckin hate kids. Yes they're cute it makes me want to punch them in the face. I don't surely know what'll happen if I had kids.

17. Every time I lie, it turns out to be a 'yes'. Some of you may know what I mean by that.

18. I don't wear heels but I own 2 of them here in Perth.

19. I'm a die-hard fan of Katy Perry and Joshua Hayward. They're my weakness.

20. I still don't know what to put as my title.

I AM A FUKIN HORROR.

Mood: Stressed out

Currently playing: Florence and the Machine - You've Got the Love (even I knew it before I found out it's all over the radio, fuck sake)

Traumatized by you

I am loved by this beautiful lad for around a year in a half and have been experiencing heaps of ups and downs which is usual for couples I suppose. I have this repression has been enervating my mind which solely disturbs the relationship. The internal conflict is dampened by a simple question by me to my boyfriend that usually end up with a huge fight, I might consider that as a 'colossal gamble' cos I thought I couldn't win the game. Given the fact that I usually start it (yer blame that on me) I have to deal with it myself. I point out that epochs of this case are also times of general war, with links between short-distance and long-distance relationship. The most profound upheaval is to be found in myself, again, where small things about her, reminds me of her - well, you see we used to be best friends for years before we decided to start a relationship so I know most of the things about her, and them actually, to be honest that made me hurt so much I wanted to stab my chest no I'm joking I wasn't that idiot to give up on such thing like this, well yes I tried once but I failed. Shh, nevermind.

I quelled the conflict by warming myself with a cup of a mushroom soup, I often sleep early to kick it all off and ask him if he's all mine. I know it's a bit corny but really, it's sort of crucial ah'd say to reassure that you two are okay, more to ignore that bloody motherfucker haaaa. But really, I'm too traumatized by her, I need times /: The tyranny will be over soon I believe. Bloody hell why bother posting this? I find the word 'tyranny' is a term that is a bit hard to define, I don't even know why am I using that.

So off I go Skyping with the boy. Two assignments to be done within a week, I will be on hiatus I assume it won't take long. Hiatus here meaning no Twitter, Facebook and what else? Tumblr! That is a very huge temptation, one of the ways to start my day. And yes yes, dear you vile woman, have fun!

x

You are my favourite BOODA CALL.

"I hate brocolli because everyone hates it."

It was such a splendid night I had with my ladies, Shari and Ratih. I spent the whole Friday with them two at Shari's. It took me more than 20 minutes to finally meet Ratih at SportsGirl in London Court that day. I was declaring myself a lady as I bought two scarf and I wore a cute scarf around my hair. We threes were about to watch Dear John (I know it's a guilty pleasure much), but we decided to stay at Shari's turning on the 'Welcome to the King of Iron Tournament' and had a superb battle between me, Shari, Ratih, Osmar, and Andy. I got 5 wins, no wonder, til my fingers felt numb I couldn't move it. Fandy asked me to escort the majesty to Maccas to grab a grub.

The time struck 11PM when Shari decided to move her arse to her room cos she needs to finish her photography project by taking Ratih's picture of black and white. So we went in and I looked at them having their make-up session I wanted to latch on to it. Here are some pics Shari has tagged on my Facebook if you fancy to look at it, maybe?

Two Kish in Black and White. We both are lost in mind.

The bitches are trying to enjoy every moment in life by touching their boobs, imagining it is a planet they can live in.

Me and my favourite booda call being such an innocent lady, in 1966.

"Oooohhhh baby how can I survive on Whorearth without you? I will follow you into the dark."

We're too shy to tell you how gorgeous we are. Look at our arse, they're the most amazing part of our bodies you can die.

Those are some of em. We were using Shari's Nikon which was amazing I love the camera thanks to the camera I looked cuter in every single snap on it. Booyah.

Anyroad, I have seen Alice in Wonderland and with my contrite heart I have to say the movie failed to amuse me as everyone expected it would be. I would give them 6.5/10. It was such a long movie I was this close to nod off. This time when Alice tried to kill the dragon, I feel like.. Is it that easy to kill a huge massive dragon with a small and a blunt sword? Heroin face of Alice, at least everyone said it to me so yeah. I thought so. It's a total duff. I was distraught by the whole story-line, it's not even a wonderland, it's a fuckedupland. I wasn't made up about the movie I had to pay AUD19 and I had to bring my own 3D glasses. I know Tim Burton is a good movie director (too bad he's American) I mean, I like his Sweeney Todd, Corpse Bride, and of course, Mars Attack! (Used to be one of my favourite movie). I like him usually, but not in Alice in Wonderland, to be honest.

Touche. I feel stuffed even though you have to know the truth I woke up at 2.30 in the afto today. Very morning class tomorrow and have to finish my 27 Letters exercise, hate to remember that. So I hope to blog again sometime soon. Enjoy your weekend and hope you all have a great day ahead starting toms. I have to call Deo to know where he is right now otherwise I am going to watch a DVD.

Cheerio. x

Dazed and Confused

The title is inspired by Katy Perry as she wrote down on Twitter.

There are too many things I did back in Jakarta, I am not able to describe the whole thing here. Lovely times, amazing times, horrible times, sad times and all became one. Here are some of the stories I would love to share it with you guys. First of all, I am deadly tired. I just got back from the airport around 6AM as the flight departed at 12.15AM post-midnight.

The Departure

I woke up at 7AM in the morning because I could not sleep well. I thought of something I did not want to happen. When I opened my eyes I did not see my mother beside me. I immediately jumped off the bed and ran downstairs to see if my mother was there. I twigged I was still in Jakarta so I thanked God for that. I hugged my mother and told her "Mum, I don't wanna go back can I just stay?" and she hugged me back and told me to calm myself down as everything would be all right. I only need to finish 2 more semester then I am done with Uni. Amin :) I looked at the time every single minute I wanted to hit them so I do not need to know that I am actually leaving. Me and mother spent the whole day together I did not want to let her go. When she walked, I followed her. I just could not let them go, just like that.

I tried to hide the feeling of sadness but I could not resist that until it finally pour down itself and my mother hugged me. I miss her hug I miss her kiss. I always spend the last day in Jakarta with them on Sunday and that is why I hate Sunday.

The clock struck 9PM, mother asked me to get dressed and that cos we were about to leave at 930PM sharp! My hands was shaking I had no guts to go up and get dressed. I cried over my room and I told her to be nice while I am away. I kissed my puppies and the old dog there to say good bye, I looked at the theater and cried over it again as I spent most of the times at the theater with my loved ones. Off we go.

I snuggled my mother in the car I did not want to let her go if only she could come with me. The flight departed at 12AM and I tried the best to hide the feeling so mother father and my sister will be proud of me. Deo too :) I tried so hard to smile cos I do not want this to take long.

Then I left them at 11.10PM cos I got to board soon. Sigh.........

The Surprise

This is the most amazing the best days I ever had in my life at least til the end of February XD So thanks to Valentine's Day for giving me a super chance to meet the one and only, Deo Karmawan. I did not know he would come to visit me until on Sunday he called me and said he got the ticket. I did not do anything but kept silent as I thought it was a joke! I could not stop screaming I kept dancing I did not care about people looking at me weird I was too excited I cannot even explain! Then he told me the flight would be depart at 6PM so I got to pick him up at 7PM local time (Jakarta) I wow-ed I could not believe it would happen, really!

So I was watching Hannah Montana The Movie until I saw a thing coming from upstairs and I took it I twigged it was a chocolate. I thought it was my sister throwing it at me but then when I looked up, I saw this very beautiful and gorgeous lad grinning. It was Deo!!!! I jumped off the chair again then I ran to the stairs very fast I hugged him incredibly tight he could not breathe. I was surprised I cried. I mean, finally :'D

We spent the whole 4 amazing days together, just two of us no one could bother us unless they want me to punch them in the face. I went to lovely places which has become nothing but a history. Places I love the most I could feel him any time. The best place is my haus of course. He used to sleep right next to my door and every time I wake up I can see that very beautiful face I can touch and kiss it gently and softly.

Until the day has come, he had to go back to his hometown where I miss the most too. I am beyond grateful to have this amazing lad as mine. I hope this can last forever, it has to! I love him more than anything in my whole life. Note that! Or I'll put your name in my Deathnote if you dare to touch him. Cos he is all mine. Enough said.

But to be with him 4 days was the best moment in my life, at least for recent holiday hehehe. But to be with him (again) berapa lama pun itu, it will never be enough!! For me, for us :') cos I always want to be with him. And as Ashton Kutcher quoted on Valentine's Day: On Valentine's Day, you don't think. You do. Isn't that sweet? I promise I'd do the same too haha. Is it still a surprise? Hm, it might be. Radda radda ru, my deer!

Anyways, excuse my grammar. I am now chatting with this lovely lad on MSN while waiting for me to hit Uni soon.

I miss Jakarta already. I miss mum, dad, the little sister, my puppies, the old dog, mates and of course, Deo. Hope to graduate soon the end of this year so I will be able to be with my loved ones every day without thinking of any of Perth stuff and that.

Eywa ngahu!

P.S: I love you, Deo.

There's only so many songs that,

I can sing to pass the time.

All I have is this picture in a frame,

that I hold close to see your face every day.

Now the minutes feel like hours and,

the hours feel like days.

With you is where I'd rather be,

it's so hard it's so far.

This long distance is killing me..

Brandy - Long Distance

I'm counting 10 days left to hell and I haven't got any chances to meet the bhoy for the last time (at least) in Jakarta. It's gonna be tough, you know, it is not that possible for him to come and visit me in Perth. So yeah, 4 months won't be that long I guess.

I don't have much things to say. I'm bored if only I could stay any longer here. I love Deo yous don't want to know how much. But not tonight as I'm ruining the whole conversation on Skype. What a petulant child you are, Kish. I don't fukkin know what to say but to keep silent. Oh well, good night then.

Nineteen.

Counting down 3 hours and a half until my birthday. Don't have to say much, really. I only wish you would be here giving me a happy birthday kiss :') oh shoo!

I love you.